COMM: As master of the hunt, Graham Pascoe was the embodiment of the red blooded alpha
male, with a lifestyle to envy. But the married father of two was living a lie. Inside, he
was a woman. SUE: I was in constant conflict with myself. I wanted to be Sue, but I needed to be Graham.
Inside I was dying. COMM: Finally at the age of 54, Graham had gender correction surgery to transform into
the woman he’d always been. Sue. SUE: The anaesthetist stuck the needle in and that was it, I was gone. Then I woke up,
and I smiled at Dr. Kaushik when he came in, and he said what does it feel like? And I
said, if I die tomorrow this will have been worth it. COMM: When I made my decision to become Sue I thought that I would lose my family, I’d
lose my farm, I’d lose my business, that people would ostracise me. DAWN: When Sue was Graham, Graham was Sue. What I’m trying to put across is she’s always been Sue. SUE: My first feelings of being in the wrong body were between being three years old and
five years old. I just didn’t feel like a boy. COMM: As an adult Sue fought to become more masculine. Even qualifying as a pilot and
becoming a hunt master. In 1985 Sue married and went on to have two sons. Eventually though
the marriage faltered. For Sue it was a release. SUE: I had been in prison. I had kept my promise, and my loyalty to my wife and to my children.
And once I was freed, at last in my life, I could start to become who I really am. COMM: Finally, in 2014 Sue was diagnosed with gender dysphoria, and approached her doctor
about gender correction surgery. But was told she would have to wait over four years. SUE: I was utterly devastated, if I’d have had to wait for four and half years, quite
frankly, I’d have been dead. COMM: Sue didn’t want to waste any more time so she headed east and paid less than £10,000
for full gender correction surgery in India. In November 2014, Sue had breast augmentation,
botox and stem cell injections. Her second visit in March 2015 saw her have facial surgery
and genital reconstruction. COMM: Sue’s now back in the UK. Beauty specialist Diane has been helping her achieve her look. DIANE: Your face is healing nicely now, it’s not swollen now.
SUE: That’s right, it’s going down quite well. I think he’s done an amazing job. DIANE: I think it’s really nice actually because it seems to sort of transform, and one of
my things is trying to make you look even more feminine isn’t it really? And sort of
bringing out the natural features in her face. She’s got fab lips. I’m jealous! COMM: As Graham, one of Sue’s biggest passions had been hunting. And she’d ridden to the
very top, becoming master of the hunt. But Sue was nervous about how the hunting fraternity
would greet her decision to transition. SUE: After my family, my greatest fear was that I wouldn’t be able to hunt. I was dreading
the first day I went out. A woman who’s now into her early seventies, and she rode over
to me, and she said “Sue darling, how are you doing?” as though I’d been Sue all
my life. What a class act that lady. COMM: Looking to the future Sue is planning on setting up a charity to help other transgender
people seeking to travel abroad for surgery. And she’s not ruled out finding love. SUE: I would love to have a long term relationship with a loving partner who I would regard as my friend and soulmate. Yes I would. Wouldn’t everybody?